The Inconsequential Muse

I’m working at Microsoft this summer!

Microsoft gave me an internship offer! I’m so happy =D

Amazon offered me a killer internship. 10% off amazon.com, 18k stipend, housing and relocation assistance, public transit pass, etc.

I feel bad that I’m doing so much work recently over break. I feel like I haven’t relaxed enough.

Sometimes I wonder.
Is it me or her? I desperately want to be perfect for her, because I don’t know what else to do. I want to be everything she needs. And then there comes a situation that I don’t know how to handle, and then I feel like a failure.
My friends joke that I always have all the answer… I wish I did. All the books in the world probably wouldn’t help me get over my fear of failure. It’s been engrained in me for as long as I can remember..
Ah, so we have another case of Phil complains about nothing. I’m just being misanthropic because I can’t be perfect. Mistakes don’t matter that much when they happen to solely me, but when the involve other people, it never leaves my brain or my heart… Even for little slights.

I have an interview with Goldman Sachs! It’s 7 and a half hours long according to my time-slot and I have to go to them at 8 in the morning in business attire.

Talk about an intimidating interview.

Jamming to the shittiest indie music from 2006 and having a blast. God, how the hell did this stuff even exist and why did I listen to it?

I’ve been eyeing “The Society of Mind” just sitting on my shelf… I should finish that too.

I have a long list of things I really should cover. Kripke is up there too. I also want to learn Superposition Calculus but I have to ask the authoring professor (he teaches at my school) if he has a copy I can borrow because my school doesn’t have access to the original paper…

And lambda calculus. I need to learn that too.

I got an interview with Facebook!

Now, I don’t really feel like relocating to Menlo Park, CA, but this is a nice opportunity!